This Dark Age

A manual for life in the modern world.

By Daniel Schwindt

This Dark Age is now available in paperback on Amazon. The print version is MUCH cleaner than this online version, which is largely unedited and has fallen by the wayside as the project has grown. If you’ve appreciated my writing, please consider leaving a review on the relevant paperback volumes. The print edition also includes new sections (Military History, War Psychology, Dogmatic Theology).

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Do not cling to conceptual certainty

Perhaps you will reach a moment, after entering into the contemplative work, when you realize with great confusion and even terror that you no longer know what or who God is. The Father you have known, even since you were born, suddenly evaporates in front of you and you are left wondering if you ever knew anything at all about Him. You may draw back in fear, as if you have somehow stumbled into some great spiritual danger–that you have “lost track of God” somehow. But the opposite is true. You have finally stepped out of the comfort of a false confidence in your own conceptions–conceptions that, being products of your childish imagination, were never really true, and could only ever serve you up to a certain point in your spiritual maturation–a point which you have now reached. And now you must proceed further, and for that you must proceed differently–without the aid of your conceptions. That is why you now find yourself with no concept of God, unable even to form one. In fact you cannot even think anything specific about Him at all without it slipping through your fingers like water. Don’t worry. You are in the cloud of unknowing–you are closer to Him than you’ve ever been. Do not be shaken, but give yourself over to this darkness with fear and trembling. You must “walk by faith, and not by sight,” trusting in Him to shepherd you.

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